Down with the sickness

Okay so yeah, first off I don't remember if I've already used that headline.... But I can't bother to check with this tiny lap top ´n`

And second, I've been really sick for a couple of days. And now I'm not talking about my depression and psychotic symptoms but a simple flu. Though I feel absolutely terrible XD It started with a simple sour throat, and in an instant turned into a horrible sickness with coughing and sneezing and head hurting and feeling like it would explode and boil. Funnily enough, I don't have a fever 'o'

But yeah, I haven't drawn in such a long time.... nor have I written anything ´n` I've mostly just watched tv and listened to music, read sometimes. I feel really bad about this especially since I haven't read that much :----/ I really want to but it's hard to find a good time and then actually concentrate on the text long enough to get into it, and there're so many distractions and I really hate myself because I can't simply just read like I used to ´o` I miss those good old times in elementary school when I read all the time, seriously, even if there was a 5 minute bus ride I read, even when I walked home 'o' But at least I got some inspiration to draw so I won't be doing nothing~~ At least for a day XD

And one more thing, why do all foreigners want to be with me, even though they don't know me, but almost never Finnish guys even look at me? I mean, whenever someone comes to talk to me when I'm out it's a foreigner, and in facebook all kinds of foreginers come talk to me and want to be with me. I'm not promoting myself or anything, I just think it's sad I have to turn so many people down(okay, not that many, but too many still) and I can't even do it face to face but have to send them a message in facebook or someting.... Not that I don't like foreigners, I have been in a long distance relationship with two guys from other countries, but mostly I don't feel the same way they feel and I know how hard it is to be in a long distance relationship and I don't wish anyone should go through the pain it brings. Though sometimes it might be a little bit easier if you don't meet the guy than if you would have met him and fallen even more in love with him and then it wouldn't have worked out, but it's never as good as it is with a person who lives near than it is with a guy who lives thousands of miles away. I'm not saying you shouldn't get a long distance relationship, I'm just saying if you start one make sure it's with someone you truely care about, that it can have a future. I didn't even get to meet either guy, and I regret that even though it would have probably been much worse if I saw them, but I still regret it. It feels like we didn't even have a chance because we never met.

But now I'm babbling, can happen when I'm sick, or tired, or both which is true right now XD :---D But anyway now gonna go colour my friends birthday card (only about 2 or 3 months too late.... I'm just happy I got to give her present already, and that she liked it ´o`) and draw some more!! I wish to submit something new soon :---)

Baibai, love you all xxxx